Apologizes for the lack of activity. Midterms + stress + other shit = Sunny does not feel like doing much of anything.
So here are the last four weeks of PBP.
Energywork is important for everyone, and is a large part of my practice as a Shaman. Energywork is wide and varried, encompassing things like shadow work, healing, and manipulation (another encompassing word, referring to things like magick).
Right now I’m focused on shadow work, as per Coyote’s request. I’ve always had a pretty good understanding of my Shadow, or at least I thought I have. It is the side of me that is “everything else”. This, however, is not the same for everyone. I have the Yin-Yang thing going, but others it might just be what you dislike about yourself and hide. My Shadow… Well maybe it’s more appropriate to call me the shadow. My Shadow is Leukothea Ocelotl, a goddess of storms and lightning. Together we are balanced. I am half of her, more than she is half of me. (Like I said, this is not the same for everyone. There’s some intense shit in that btw. You don’t want to be a goddess. It’s scary, overbearing, etc. etc.) I’m thinking with the Shadow work, I need to start encompassing the more feminine traits of Leukothea into me. The Mother traits. Exotic beauty. Happiness in your exoticness.
Healing, of course, is healing. I do energywork for healing, aligning chakras and editing blockages and such. I have some of that to do on m/Myself as well. My self esteem, for one. It’s still shot, but I kinda doubt it’ll get better until I get out of the house.
Manipulation. I think I’ll replace talk of this on one of my Ms.
I have had to put so much effort into my life, right now. Between school, some work, shadow work, talking to Them and understanding Them, getting ready for college, boys, and other stuff. I haven’t really had time to write much. I might end up having to double up these articles at some point so I’ll be done mid-November… I don’t know. It depends on what happens next month. Fingers crossed, but no hopes up.
It just feels time.
BUT back to effort. Effort is an important part of magick. Equivalent exchange kind of. The more effort and energy you put in, the more you’ll get out of it. I think many a godspouse feels this way, as it’s quite a bit of effort for communication and offerings.
Getting a headache, so I’m going to cut this one short.
This has to do with two of my Boys, actually. Separate into HISTORICAL FIGURES and BIBLICAL FIGURES.
Montezuma II was, at least in my history books, the last real Aztec emperor. George Washington was the first president of the United States. Queen Dido of Carthage. Alexander the Great. These are all deified mortals that we have historical record of. Most, if not all, deified mortals were demigods in at least their last lifetime. Half divine, they raised ranks much quicker.
Abel. Michael. Lucifer/Auriel. One of the first humans and two angels. Ain’t I a lucky gal? Joking aside, I love them very much. This is despite their relationship with Christianity (whose god I am not fond of)
These figures are those I am connected to, and show that not every deity is Ancient, or as undeniably Pagan.
I’m a writer by trade, I love love love writing fiction. I’ve got several ideas in the works. I’d spill but they’re just ideas for now. From here, though, I point that fiction is a great way to honor the gods. Writing something in honor of them is a great idea for those who find writing enjoyable. Doesn’t have to be published, doesn’t have to be read. It has energy behind it, and thusly works well as an offering.
Okay, sorry, headache has gone too far and so my brain is out of things to write. Sorry.
Thanks for reading :)